I'm lacking focus.

WHAT THE FUCK!!!

I find it so hard to focus in school now, it's ridiculous. Spring break, get here a little faster.

Youth Day, 2010

JESUS.

(JESUS.)

JESUS.

(JESUS.)

OOOOOHHHHH!

Whadup. Youth Day was the bomb. Spent all day with Justin & Graham & Ashley (: So I thought we had to be there at around 545 AM. ANNNNNNK. Wrong. I set my alarm at 430 AM. I missed it. But I woke up 5 minutes later. Then I thought, oh whatever, I could sleep for 5 more minutes. You know what, I should never listen to myself when I do that. I always think it's okay to do that but then next thing you know, I wake up an hour later! I thought I was almost late! So I wake up at 5fucking30 & i'm like SHITFUCKASKJEH. Since I showered the night before, I didn't have to worry, but I obviously didn't have time to curl my hair. & then once I got to St. Dom's, I realized I freaked out over NOTHING. You know why? I was the first person there. At fucking 550 AM. What the fuck. Hahaha. I could've gotten ready & dressed better. What fucking ever.

We got super cool SDYM shirts though. Purple w. four sunglasses & on the bottom, it says "WWJS?" What Would Jesus See?

Graham + Cup of Jell-O = 2Girls1Cup remake. S'all I gotta say. K, bye (:

SCHOOL'S CRAZY.

I need to learn how to managae my time a lot better. I'm getting so tired lately, & it's cause I don't manage my time very wisely.

Speaking of time... I've learned not to waste any second. During yesterday's praise music at mass, Steve Angrisano helped most of us realize that your life here on earth has to be taken seriously. His story about the Columbine shooting hit me, & it made me realize that most things you may bicker about or people you make fun of, the things you say won't matter anyways. & when things are said about you, well you know what? Fuck it. It shouldn't matter at all, because you're bigger than all of it. I'm excited for Youth Day now (:

My life's been infested with rehearsals everyday, fashion show meetings, & soooon, the Big Bear retreat. I haven't even started packing yet. Omfg.

WOW WTF I SAW A GLEE COMMERCIAL, & MR. SCHUESTER KISSES EMMMMMMMMA! Damn, spoiler much :/ I'm not even finished watchin' season 1 & season 2 comes out in April. Fuck!

Anyway, I need to start packing tomorrow, because I go bye bye at around 430 on friday. I don't know if i even have time for anything hahaha. Shit! Life is good though.


#TEAMANDREWGARCIA, #TEAMTIMURBAN, #TEAMDONALDWEBBER, & #TEAMTODRICKHALL !! My favorite men of American Idol.

February was my favorite month, & march is my busiest.

Damn you, march! You're always a busy month for me.


I woke up early as fuck at the crack of dawn this morning just to go to Capistrano. I kinda didn't want to though, because I was so exhausted from rehearsals yesterday. Yes, I know. Saturday rehearsals. Laaaaame. S'all good though. It was fun -- my legs are pretty sore though! Hahaha. Anyway, my stomach hurts at the moment. I miss having time for blogging. Gr. ): ASJdkhaslfjkhasf, i don't know what I feel like writing right now .. i'm watching the Oscar's thing for the red carpet, & it makes me wanna go back to when I watched Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief with my girls. Thinkin about taking a nice walk on Hollywood on a beautiful day just makes me soooooo happpy. Watching all of the beautiful actresses wearing their dresses reminded me I still have to go find a dress later! For the debut! I think i'll go to the mall in a bit, go to Jessssica McClintockkksreihser or something. Because ate mariel's debut is on the 20th & i don't think i have time this weekend or next week to go buy a dress because I have the retreat! ): It's okay i went online shopping & i picked out my dress. Just gotta go buy it now, haha. aljwsdhfasjkdghaljwhrawiuehskdgnsdf, raaaaandom. Miley Cyrus' hair is pretty tonight, i like the updo. I wannaa be an actress, or a singer, or something. I wanna be famous one day. But my parents would rather have me be a damn doctor. "/ pffff, i really don't know. Fame looks great. But as long as i'm happy with what my future will be, then i'll be fine. hahaha, what the fuck am i even saying. i neeeda get off now. bye(:

A blog dedicated to my nanang.

Haha, welllll. It's March 7, 2010. I'd just like to say Happy Birthday to my bestestestestestest grandmother in the entire world. Felicitas Acena. She was a great woman, & i'm sure she's carrying on that same legacy up in heaven. Today is her death anniversary, too. Pretty amazing birthday gift from God to go up to heaven on your birthday, huh? Shoot, my grandmama was lucky. I wish she was still here to see me grow up into a grown lady that she was probably here to seee. She came into the states knowing she'd be here to take care of her newborn granddaughter, hopefully staying long enough to be with her til she became a lady. Unfortunately, she passed away when I was barely 10, but I know there were memories we both shared that reassured her I was gonna grow up the way she expected. I miss you so much, nanang. I do wish you were still here with us. We all miss you. We all want you back. But now, all we gotta do is hope & pray we make it into heaven to be with you again. Just wait for us, we're all gonna be there sooon (: I wish I could go to the Philippines with everyone this year and visit your grave. I haven't been back in forever, & i feel at home when i'm there. Except nanang, I don't know how you dealt with all of the mosquitos. I attract them so much, it's annoying. Hahah, so I just wanted to say again, happy birthday, & I'll see you soooon ma(: